Fact: I felt like an imposter.
How could I not? Here, I have been for 4 years now, preaching on the Superbands blog and social media to audiences around the world about the importance of self-care and putting mental health as a priority. But what was I doing? I was guarded, hiding, afraid to take the first real step I needed to heal. I sat behind a computer screen, giving everyone the advice that I should have listened to years ago.
I have never been a fan of New Year’s Resolutions. I felt like they were overrated and I cringed every time I was asked what my “resolutions for the new year” were. However, on December 31, 2018, something changed. It wasn’t forced, and it was a subtle urge to grab some paper and take the leap. I sat on my couch, snuggled up in my a new blanket I had received on Christmas a few days prior, with a notebook and pen in hand. I tapped at the the first page, titled in block letters “2019 goals”. I was doing it.
I was (finally) writing my resolutions.
At the top of my list: Make mental health a priority in my self-care routine.
Pen to paper is powerful. Just days later, as I faced the post-holiday blues, I made the appointment for my first therapy session. I was nervous and excited. I couldn’t stop thinking about it, talking about it. I received support from the people that mattered, backlash and rude comments from the people that didn’t. Despite it all, I knew this was the right decision and I crossed off the days on my calendar as I inched closer to the big day.
On a new series on the Superbands blog to kick off the new year, Lessons From The Leather Chair, I will be chronicling the lessons I have learned every week from these intimate therapy sessions. I will be sharing regularly in the hopes that it may relate to so many others who are hiding, afraid, ashamed — of this first step. Maybe it will be relatable to those of you who are already in therapy, and we can laugh, cry, and gravel at our similar yet so, so different experiences.
Regardless of what these are to you, I am looking forward to sharing my learnings as I take on the next chapter, the next step forward. I hope you’ll join me.
Happy New Year, Superfans. Welcome to 2019.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Jessica Villa is the Founder and President of Superbands. The vision was born from her own battles with depression and suicide as a teenager. With no business experience, she embarked on a journey of a lifetime - fueled only by her passion (and lots of green tea lattes).
In her free time, Jessica loves going on adventures with her fiance and their 2 dogs. Her dream is to be able to change the stigma around mental health to encourage teens to live their best, happiest lives - so no one has to feel alone. She hopes to change the world with Superbands and is so excited for this new year of possibilities.